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Just Winging It
Happy first day of May (cue the Justin Timberlake memes)! It seems surreal that the first four months of the year have come and gone. I say this all the time: the weeks, months and years keep flying by too quickly.
I wanted to jump on here today and post about something non-beauty related that has been on my mind lately. I have been feeling out of my element recently, going through a weird time in life. That happens to all of us, right? You go through ebbs and flows. Sometimes you feel as though life is going perfectly, and other times it all seems to be crumbling apart.
Change Is Good But Can be Difficult
My life definitely is not crumbling apart, I don’t want to give you the wrong impression. I just don’t feel my best right now. I sort of feel like…I’m just winging it. Eyeliner, life, everything (haha). The reason I believe I’m feeling this way is due to a new change. Just a little more than two weeks ago, I started a new full-time marketing position. If you’re new to my blog or if you’re a potential wedding client just visiting my website for the first time, I actually do marketing full-time and makeup on the side. I took a leap of faith and left the company I previously worked for during the last four+ years and joined an automated manufacturing company to lead their marketing efforts.
Since it is a brand new position that was created and I don’t have anyone to train or learn from, I am feeling out of my element. I am managing a team of people while trying to understand the corporate strategy and determine a marketing strategy…for six different companies. I always love a good challenge, and that’s why I said yes to the position. I know that I was hired for a reason, and right now I need to remind myself of that.
After working at my last company for more than four years, I grew to feel comfortable: with my job itself, the people I worked with, my commute, my schedule, etc. Now I have a longer commute, I am not close to anyone at the company (yet), and I feel unsure about my role. However, I know that will change. So for right now, I am winging it. I am going with my gut, doing what I think is best, and reminding myself that again, I was hired for a reason.
Flashback to The Old Me
As I was feeling down on myself the other day, a random memory popped into my head. I had a flashback to when I was in college and worked at a restaurant. It was a new restaurant, and I was hired as a server even though I hardly had any experience. I was feeling overwhelmed but still kept a smile on my face as I was “winging it” and convincing myself I knew what I was doing while waiting on tables.
The general manager and customers seemed to like me, so I figured I must be doing something right. Then one night one of my tables had an issue with their food. I honestly don’t remember what the issue was, other than something to do with a hamburger. I took the burger back into the kitchen to talk to the head chef about whatever the problem was, and he flipped out on me. I mean, really yelled.
After a few minutes of processing what just happened and feeling completely down on myself, I retreated to the restroom and started to cry. Mind you, I don’t cry very often or easily. After having a mini-meltdown for about two minutes, I looked at the 21-year old young woman in the mirror, dressed in a black polo shirt and black pants and told her, “It’s okay. Just keep giving it 110%.”
Always Give 110%
The thing is, even if you feel uncomfortable and unsure of what you’re currently doing, whether it be a new job, a new workout, or a new relationship, if you give it 110%, things are bound to fall into place and work out. Change is hard – just remind yourself that things will always get better, everything happens for a reason, and you got this! At least that’s what I’m telling myself 🙂
Have you ever felt like you were just winging it, or at a weird stage in your life? Leave a comment and share your story!